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Missed a week... [08 Apr 2004|12:55pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Ew. I completely forgot to update last week. And here I was doing so well. Nothing really new going on around here... so I'll start with the obvious.

I went and got weighed last night and last week, of course. Last week, I gained .6 of a pound, which took me from 205.4 to 206. Ew. *laughs* But last night, I lost 2 pounds, so I went from 206 to 204, for a grand total of 5.6 pounds lost. YAY ME! *laughs* I also found out my ten percent difference, which is at 189, and my weight range, which is 109 to 125. Because I'm so short and actually have a very small build, my goal is 120 to 125. Which, it might take a year or so, but I know I can do it! I do know though that I need more exercise, because right now, I've been fitting in maybe one day of true exercise a week. I'd probably be losing more if I did more of that. However, I don't exercise on days that I have a double at work, or days that I wait tables. Because serving is an aerobic workout in itself. *smiles*

Speaking of work, I got there last Thursday, and out of nowhere decided that I wanted to close, so I begged one of my coworkers for his closing shift. He finally got tired of me asking, so he gave me the shift, and I ended up leaving with $87, I'm just like, "wow, this beats the $45 that I make when I'm a BD shift!" So I asked the scheduling manager for Thursday night closes until I go back to school, and she gave them to me, starting next week.

Oh, and FYI: I found my dream car, but I have to get some of my credit card bills paid off before I can get it, hence the closing shift I wanted. I want a Ford Escape. How cute are those?

Anyway, time for lunch and to waste the next hour before I have to get ready for work. Love love to all!

*blows kisses*

Someone remind me to upload my Lilo and Stitch mood theme tonight.

And for everyone who mentioned having a GJ journal, I'm adding you! My name over there is DrMandyMoo. That names for you, Bug!

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[03 Apr 2004|01:19pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Quick question before my weekly update...

Who has a journal at GJ?

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Oh my God! LOOOOOOK! [25 Mar 2004|12:27pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

*laughs* Look at this. Going on week three, and I'm keeping it steady, updating once a week. Whoo! It's only a matter of time before I end up like Joe or Denise, updating a couple times a day or a couple of times a week. But forgive me while I work slowly into this. I wouldn't want to overexert myself. *grins*

Things are going well here in Missouri. *gags* I took a few extra days off work to do things that I've been trying to do for the longest time. Very few of those things got done though, because you know what I've been doing instead? *points to her computer* God, I'm such a loser. *laughs* I've been trying to do spring cleaning, and I've officially gotten through a room and a half. *she looks around the room she's sitting in* However, I think I need to buy a very large storage box before I can go further in here. I actually foudn things that I didn't remember having. I found about a million and one 'N Sync posters... all five bobble heads... all five marionettes... and three of the five bears. Not to mention enough home videos to open up my own pop video store. So, that's what I'm doing this afternoon... finishing this room and starting on my bathroom. *laughs*

I sent in my application to attend the local college, as well as got the fees sent in and my transcripts on their way. I know I'll get in... it's just a matter of how long I can go there before I have all the hours that I can get at a community college. From what I understand though, I can get alot of my math, basic biology, chemistry, and anatomy courses there. I'm hoping to start in the summer, just so I don't have to take that much time off, so we'll see what happens.

As usual, I went and got weighed last night. I weighed in at 205.4, having lost 3.2 pounds this week. Which gives me a grand total of 4.6 pounds over all. YAY!

Random thought: How unfair was it that Matt Rogers got kicked off last night on "American Idol?" GRRRRRRR...

Well, that's 'bout it. I'm out to start my day... at almost 12:45 PM. *dies*


P.S. If anyone knows where I can find a Disney mood theme, please let me know!

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[18 Mar 2004|02:17pm]
[ mood | blah ]


I figured it might be time for my weekly update. Even though there isn't anything different going on than the last time I updated, at least y'all will know I'm alive, right?

My birthday was on Tuesday. It was fine, I guess. My mom took me to dinner at this place downtown. It's so freakin' good. And even though I had a diet I'm supposed to be staying on, I ended up eating SO much food. But the way I figured, it comes once a year. I deserved it.

Despite the fact that I ate so much, I still went in and got weighed on Wednesday night. Last week, I weighed in at 210, and this week, 208.6. So, I ended up losing 1.4 pounds. And I bet it would have been more if I hadn't have ate all that I did on Tuesday night.

Next week would be my spring break, if I was still in school. If being the keyword there. However, back when I was, I asked off for Monday through Thursday, just to give me a break, some time to clean, relax, all that good stuff. I hope I get it. My apartment is a mess...

Random thought: E-bay sellers bug me.

That's it for today... MUAH!

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[13 Mar 2004|01:27pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]


It's been forever and a day since I've sat down to update this thing. Boy, do I suck. *laughs* Seriously though, real life has been a bitch lately, and the last thing I've wanted to do is sit down and write about it. But here I go... I'm going to write it all out. Maybe this will actually help. *blinks* That and thank God I have RP land to hide behind.

The biggest thing that's happened recently is that my mom is engaged again. Not that I care that much, because this guy is awesome, and she totally deserves it all. However, the catch is that he's only 29. Which means he's six years older than me. Which means that he could... be mine. *shrugs* Anyway, they are planning the wedding for this time next year, and she wants me to be her maid of honor.

Moving on, school. Oh god, what a disaster this has been. If any of you'll recall my entries from last semester and how I got dropped from classes, blah, blah, blah, well, it happened AGAIN this semester. I don't know what the problem was. The financial aid office never even contacted me to let me know that I owed them money, the my file wasn't complete, or that my financial aid wasn't going to go through. What the hell is that about, right? I'm so frustrated regarding this school situation, but I'm doing my best to stay happy and keep a positive attitude about it. I'm probably going to enroll at one of the local colleges to make up for this semester so it won't put me back anymore, and might even stay there while I get all the credits I possibly can. Who knows. I'm also considering changing my major to Psychology, but every time I go in to meet with my advisor and want to mention it, I change my mind. As Joe once told me, what other people think is a great reason to change my major. Only not. *laughs* Everytime I doubt my ability to do that, I remember the day he told me that and I decide to stay where I'm at.

Now, this next subject... it's... well, it's something that has been incredibly sensitive to me for years now. Although it wasn't ever at the front of my mind until my senior year of high school or so, it's something I've struggled with since I was 12 or 13. My weight. Sounds crazy, I know. Those of you who've met me or seen pictures might even tell me that I look fine or whatever. The catch is, I'm not happy with it. So, last week, I decided to do something about it. When I was a senior, I went to Weight Watchers with my mom and ended up losing about 45 pounds. Then, I went away to college and it all came back.

So, last week, I went back. I weighed in at 210. I just about died. Seriously. It completely freaked me out that I could let it get that out of hand. I stayed for the meeting, picked up a few tips, then talked to the lady who runs it there afterwards. I pretty much remembered everything, but there were a few small changes that I needed to pay attention to. Anyway, you're probably sitting there reading this wondering why I'm spilling my guts like this. Well, I'm going to pretty much post my progress in here, in hopes that I can get some encouragement from my friends. Even though it is extremely helpful, it's horrible... having to watch everything you put into your mouth... the foods you once loved are like, evil now. Having to write down everything you eat. It's just... ugh.

Anyway, I was just exercising, so I'm going to go shower and then get some lunch. Everyone, take care and remember I love you... like whoa.

*sends hugs, kisses, and a Weight Watchers desert to all*

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[16 Feb 2004|12:59am]
[ mood | lonely ]

I need help.

What draws the line between meaningless flirting and not so meaningless flirting?

Do me a favor and be descriptive and use examples. Why? Because Mandy is 100% clueless at this all.

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[09 Feb 2004|12:14am]
[ mood | discontent ]

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
Is this as hard as it gets
'Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me, I'm yours you can hold me
I'm empty and taken and tumblin' and breakin'

'Cause you don't see me
You don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream of worlds where you understand
And I dream a million sleepless nights
I dream of fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded, it's too complicated
Is this how the book ends, nothing but good friends

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I wish you would

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
Is this the last chance that I'll ever get
I wish I were lonely instead of just only
Crystal and see through and not enough to you

'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
'Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

(Wish upon a star )

[08 Feb 2004|11:21pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Bad night.


Hate Valentine's Day like whoa.

Am sick of this.

Is tired of waiting for life to happen.

Really wants to quit at life.

Being a hermit sounds really good right now.

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Ew ew ew! [09 Jan 2004|05:52pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Ew! I suck so freakin' bad at this thing. In fact, I had completely forgotten that I have it. *shakes her head* But hopefully, I'm back now and able to keep up with this thing. Maybe? Hopefully? Those of you who see me online need to give me a good bitch cyber slap sometimes and tell me to go check my OOC journal and write in it! Okay? Thank you!

Things have been crazy lately, to be honest. Between work running me ragged, getting ready to go back to school, and just trying to find time for me to help myself get over my little self esteem quirks, no wonder I died off. Well, what do you all say that I start here at the beginning, eh?

As alot of you know, I was suspended from school, UMSL. They suspended me without probation, which I don't think you're even allowed to do. So, I was like, "screw you, I'll go somewhere else." That's when I transferred to Fontbonne. Well, I was there for about a month and then, I find out that a third of your tuition had to be paid by the first day of classes, even if you were waiting for financial aid, or you were to be dropped from your classes. So, once more, I pulled a "screw you" and decided to give UMSL another shot. I was supposed to be suspended for a full year, but I wrote an appeal to the dean and everything, and I got back in a semester early! Whoo! Go me! *laughs* I do have a huge list of things that have to be done, given to me by the dean, such as keeping at LEAST a 3.5 (med schools won't even CONSIDER you without a 3.8), I have to meet with my advisor once every three weeks, and I have to meet with my instructors one a month. Anyway, I go back on Monday, and I'm so freakin' excited I can barely contain myself. And no, that was not sarcastic. *laughs*

Work, well... I trained on our carside service. More or less, people call in an order to go, and when they come to pick it up, we bring it directly to the car. So, it's like a more sophisticated version of Sonic. *laughs* I also trained as what we call an expo. That means that you take all the plates, garnish them, put on dressings, and get each order together when it's ready. That also means that you're in charge in the kitchen. Well, let me just say... when I expo, I kick ass, okay? *laughs* You have this little girl who's like, so timid when she's serving yelling orders and everything... demanding respect and in charge of like, six to eight men who are cooking. *grins* I LOVE being the expo.

My self esteem? Eh. Same as always. Kind of. I still get down on myself and upset, but it's not as frequent lately. It's weird. I dunno. Moving on.

Okay... lastly, I was talking to a friend of mine last night, who I'm hoping will end up reading this. If she doesn't acknowledge that it's for her, I'm going to point it out. As all of you know, I'd do anything for my friends. I'd even go as far as giving them... hell, a liver, or something, if they needed it. *winks* In trying to encourage this person, I actually sat back and listened to myself, and I'm going to tell all of you something that I told her. When you start feeling down and life really just sucks, remember this... in 100 years, it's not going to matter and no one is going to care. No one is going to care if you have a pile of laundry in your hall, if you failed that test, if you got a speeding ticket, if you had a fight with someone. Therefore, when life hands you something that really bums you out, remember that if in 100 years, no one is going to care, then it shouldn't bother you today. I know that's really easier said than done, but life is also easier if you keep a smile and positive attitude. And on that note, here's one more bit of encouragement, not only for her, but for myself and for all of you...

Bigger Than My BodyCollapse )

Okay, well. *laughs* I think I need to go and get some food and stuff. I'll be back later y'all. Much love!

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[17 Dec 2003|02:43pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

give bittergoddess21 more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

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[02 Dec 2003|07:54pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Oh my god! Look! It's another update from me! *laughs* I figured I should update again, because Denise took me up on that offer and told me that I suck. *insert mean face here*

Anyway, I'm mostly updating again because I have a story. So, last night, right after I updated, I had a clutz moment. I knocked over a glass of hot chocolate on my keyboard and it stopped working. Go figure, right? So, today, I had to get up, go to a Best Buy, and buy a new keyboard. I wanted a wireless one, but they were too expensive for my checkbook to handle.

I just wrote an e-mail to the dean of the Arts and Sciences at UMSL, asking about my suspension. Wish me luck!

I need to go finish my Christmas cards. Speaking of, I'm taking a hint from Bug and begging for addresses since I love to mail Christmas cards. *giggles*

I think I'm done now.


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Could it really be? [01 Dec 2003|10:21pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Okay, let's all say it together: Mandy, you suck! Yes, I know I do. I have definite issues with updating this thing. Do you all really want to know how often I tell myself that I should update it or check my friends page here, and yet, I never actually get around to it? All the freakin' time. You have no idea. So, I have an idea. Those of you that see me online on a regular basis, you know who you are, IM me and tell me to check my friends page, alright? *nods* Okay, good. Glad we agree.

Well, looks like it's that time of year again. I decorated my apartment for Christmas tonight. Another year. I also went to Wal-Mart and as I was wandering the aisles in the Christmas part, I started thinking. I really hate this time of year. It sucks for us "singletons." Especially that damn mistletoe tradition. *gags* Anyway, I just can't get over how weird it feels to be decorating my own apartment for myself, ya know? I've wondered why I make the effort. *wrinkles her nose* Maybe someday I'll someone to kiss under the mistletoe.

Gah, now I'm all bitter. Ew. Fuck the men, let's drink to us, y'all! *laughs*

I think I tired myself out with that paragraph.

Work is the same. Boring as all hell and school isn't happening. I wish I would hear something from UMSL regarding my appeal. I sent it in almost two months ago and I still haven't heard a word. Maybe I'll e-mail the dean tomorrow and see if she has made a decision. Everyone should cross your fingers for me.

Anyway, I have about seven IM's going on, and I'm feeling sleepy, so I'm going to go. Everyone, take care of yourselves...


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[23 Oct 2003|01:13pm]
[ mood | chipper ]


Yes. So, I'm sitting here, inside on my day off, at the computer, burning more volume's for my life's soundtrack. Which... gah. *laughs* I'm addicted. What can I say? So, Tiffany, volume's three and four will be in the mail to you tomorrow morning. And you know... if you pay attention to the songs... alot of them Manda either posted or sang to Ashley at some point... *laughs* And Joe? Have you gotten yours yet?

Okay, so I have a story, which is the entire point of this update. I go out to my car to get some stuff out of it this morning, right? And I pull this bag, a street cone, and a laptop case out, and I'm walking back to my apartment. Well, I tripped on my shoe, fell, and dropped everything. *dies laughing* So, I'm sitting on my butt in the middle of the parking lot, looking around and hoping that no one saw me do that. *laughs* So then, I try to be all cool and smooth and stand up like nothing happened. And as I'm walking inside, I'm thinking, "if I had just seen someone do that, I'd be laughing my ass off."

Okay, so, that's my update.

MUAH! *blows kisses to all*

(Wish upon a star )

[22 Oct 2003|07:28pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Bored, so I stole this from sweet_thaang. Read. Have fun. Steal it from me.

... stolen, 'cause yeah...Collapse )

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[22 Oct 2003|07:13pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]


I'm insane! I've become obsessed with life_soundtrack! Make the madness end! I've already made two volumes and I have another THREE compiled. *whines* I can't do it! Make the men in the white coats come and take me away... *whimpers and curls up in a corner* Damn you Joe! This is all your fault!

Anyway, moving on... as most of you know, if you've read my journal, of course... *winks* I had to take a semester off from school due to finiancial aid problems. And then, there was the catastrophe with getting put on academic suspension for a year. Well, I had the option to write a letter to the dean of the college of arts and sciences, and I did, to appeal the suspension and have it shortened so I can return in the spring. I mailed it Monday evening... everyone, please... cross your fingers, knock on wood, say a prayer... whatever it is you do for luck, do it for me... I need to get back. I'm going crazy not being in school.

I've had an eventful weekend. I almost got arrested. It's a really long story, but just trust me when I say that if I were to steal a car, it would NOT be mine. *laughs* Seriously, I got accused of stealing my car last Friday. What's up with that? Cops here are seriously insane.

Hmm... I've had weird dreams lately. Monday evening, I had a dream that Joe died... and then, last night, I dreamed that I was in a really bad car accident. *frowns* Maybe I need to lay off the McFlurries late in the evening.

Well, I'm going to go and do something... I'm not sure what, but most likely, it will involve either going through more CD's to compile additional volumes, or looking through Willa Ford sites for pictures for icons... and yes, Cate, if it's the latter, I'll be hitting you up later!

*blows kisses to all*

(Wish upon a star )

[21 Oct 2003|12:50pm]
[ mood | worried ]


This is going to sound insane, but I had a really weird dream about you last night, and I wanted to make sure that you're okay. Catch up to me on AIM today and let me know, okay?

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It's freaking 20%!!!! [20 Oct 2003|04:01pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Hey all...

You do know that when you are in a resturaunt, and it's time to tip your server, that it's standard to give 20% of whatever your bill was, right? And that it's not cool to go less than 15%, even if you had horrible service, right?

Just checking.

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Wow... [01 Oct 2003|08:38pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I really need to start updating this thing more. And start checking my friends page on it more often. *blushes* It's been forever and a day since I've done that.

Now, where do I start? Oh, the biggest catastrophe in Mandy's life lately? School. *sighs* To make a really long story short, two weeks ago, I found out that if 1/3 of my tuition wasn't paid by the first day of classes, then I was automatically dropped. And that stands even if I was waiting on financial aid. I checked it out, and I would have had to pay the school $2,500 to stay enrolled for this semester. I'm sorry, but I don't know many people who can just pull out their checkbook and write a check for that much. I know I can't. So, the end of the story? I had to take yet another freakin' semester off. Hopefully I'll be able to enroll once more at UMSL, even past the academic probation, for the spring semester. This is absolutely driving me insane... being out of school.

Work is work. The managers are thinking of letting all the front of house positions dress up for Halloween, so that should be fun. I'm thinking about dressing as a medieval princess or something. I wish I had access to some of the costumes we used at Medieval Times. *smiles* Business has started to pick up a little, so that's awesome. I've been making some good money, even during lunch shifts.

Oh, and I got a new obsession. *dies* Ebay. They got some interesting stuff there.

And now... I'm going to get going to sift through this cluttered friends page that I haven't read for forever and a day. *smiles* I expect some comments on this!

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LALALALALA!!! [25 Aug 2003|06:50pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]


*blows raspberry* As with tradition, the first line: Not that I have much to update about, but... yeah. *laughs*

I've had... a boring couple of days... trying to take advantage of my last couple of days before I go back to school. Except yesterday. Yesterday was the day from hell. Seriously. I got to work and our bartender didn't show up. So, the manager took one of our long's... which just works from 11:00 AM to 4:00 PM... to be the bartender. She then moved me to his section so there would be a server there. I later found out that once I was told I could leave, he would be pulling double duty as bartender AND a server. I felt sorry for him, and took his hours. Now, no big deal, right? I was working a shift that ended at 4:00 PM... and I had a double and was supposed to be BACK at 4:00 PM. *frowns* I didn't get a break at all . Then, last night... uncharacteristically busy for a Sunday. Had an hour's wait list... the kitchen was backed up, so it was taking orders forever to get out... I had tables YELL at me because they thought they had waited too long. Mandy cried. I actually cried. And in front of a few customers. *makes a face* Damn bitches. My managers felt so bad for me.

So, today, I get up early to take a shower at my mom's... my hot water heater decided that it wanted to stop working. GRR! Then, I went and saw "American Wedding." Awesome movie. *dies laughing* The linen closet at the end was the BEST. I love Seann William Scott anyway. Then, I took a little trip over to the Hard Rock Cafe' and got some food and a drink. *grins* Yellow Submarine baby! And... yes, I'm still convinced that I'm gonna work there someday.

You know what? This update and talking about yesterday has me stressed out.

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[27 Jun 2003|02:24pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

*sighs heavily* Whoo.

I'm not actually updating this because I have anything to say... more like just to update on things I've talked about before. *cracks up* Believe me, if I ever have anything exciting to talk about in here, we can be sure that hell has frozen over.

The school search... not going well. I have lots of options, but none that I really WANT to do, besides go back to Texas and TCU, and that isn't an option. I'm applying at a couple community colleges, which I know I'll be able to go to one of those, which most likely is what I'll end up doing. However, to go to the CC that is more logical, I'd have to find a new job. Not necessarily move, but find a new job... so it looks like I might be on the job search, yet again. And... even though it's the logical choice, I'm not sure it's what I want to do. Two of my choices include just going to school and going straight through med school and becoming a doctor, but the logical choice is to go through a nursing program, get a part time job as a nurse to make more money and gain experience, and use that to get the rest of my bio degree and go through med school.

Then, there's the car search. In short, my car is about to die. It's not going to last too much longer. And this search has just been a nightmare in itself. I know what I want, but it's a matter of finding someplace that will give me a good enough interest rate so I'm not paying out the butt for a new car, which, once again, logically, I can't even afford right now anyway. You know, I just have to say that sometimes, being an adult and having to be logical really sucks.

Of course, on top of all that, my mom keeps putting in her two cents, and although she means well and is only doing it to help me... GRRR!!!! I just want to strangle her sometimes because it doesn't feel like she's being help... it feels like she's harping and nagging.

*sighs* But still, through all that, life is good. *smiles*

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